Word count: 466 🍃 Inspired by a crisis my very sweet d&d character had recently! Monsoon, Rain, Heka, Ronasce, Padre, Aureliius… if you see this, no you don’t.
Edit: here's the guy! :) I was near you when you fell. You, who appeared so strong, thrown to the ground. We hardly knew each other, but that made no difference. Seeing anyone with a spear in them was never a pretty sight. Your feline eyes glazed over, dropping your raised fists as your body landed with a thump. My heart fell. I wanted to act. I wanted to help, I promise. I tried. I failed. That wasn’t the first time that day, you know. The first time, I fumbled. Another stranger fell twice in a row. Each time, I wanted to act. I wanted to help, I promise. I tried. I wish I was stronger to do more. The final time was you again, Rain. Me as a wolf watching you fall made me impulsively abandon strategy and become furious. Winter is a scary time when you live among plants. Everything falls, just like you, Rain. So now, with all the frustration and anger and feeling of uselessness channeled into one single spell, I will be of use for once. Perhaps this was all I needed — an emotional push to be strong. Someone else healed you that time, thank goodness. By that point, I was exhausted. There was no more healing left in me: only shame and rage remained. How can I be a protector? I ask myself, when I can’t even help you? You don’t need to be protected — You’re as strong as Lightning After Rain. How can I be a protector? I ask myself, when I can’t even help you? You don’t need to be protected — You’re as strong as a Monsoon O’er the Tides. If I can’t protect those who who are already strong, How can I protect those who aren’t? If I can’t keep water from falling, How can I be strong myself? If you were here, soldier from the sands, You surely would have an insight. You, my first maybe-friend in this guild, You, who have been through so much yourself, You, softening to learn compassion, Breaking your previous rhythm, could surely break through mine could surely break through my pattern of uselessness. uselessness uselessness uselessness uselessness uselessness uselessness uselessness uselessness uselessness uselessness uselessness uselessness uselessness uselessness uselessness uselessness No. No, never again. Never again will I fail like this. Things may only end worse next time. There won’t always be someone to pick up my mistakes. No trickster gnomes, No sidekicks sitting on my shoulders, No soldiers on a quest to improve. Never again will I fail to be wise. Never again will I fail to be swift. Never again will I fail to be strong. Never again will I let an ally fall. That is a promise I make to myself, And to you, Monsoon, Rain, Aureliius. I will never be weak again.