I loved you.
So much, I forgot how much it aches to be so… empty.
You ignited a fire inside me. Filled my heart with an overbearing yearning for belonging only you could fill.
Now you’re gone.
I knew it would happen eventually. I knew from the moment I got into this life with you, that we could crash and I would burn.
I knew how much it would hurt. Sometimes I wonder if I’ll ever be the same again.
And sometimes I wonder…. if I ever want to.
The truth is. I don’t even know who I was before I met you. I didn’t think anyone could love me. To be completely honest, I didn’t even love myself. Now I’m wondering if the high was worth the pain… if it was worth the emptiness you left behind.
How dare you?
Force me to taste the bitter goodbye on your lips.
I want to hate you. More than anything.
And I tell myself that I do. Cursing your name, distorting your image in my mind.
But I can only lie to myself for so long. When all's well and done, and the stars fill the sky. I’m reminded just how much...
...I love you.
And just how much, I always will.